As I stood outside the doors.
I tried to prepare myself for what I was about to see.
But when I entered the room I had no idea that my life would be
changed so drastically.
I sat there in silence, as all did.
The room was filled with the flickering light of the screen.
As I cried, only a little bit, too shocked to move.
I felt like my heart was broken inside me.
I wanted to cry , but felt it hard to breathe.
I watched in silence.
As this man demonstrated what Jesus did for me.
It broke my heart and tears began to flow.
I felt helpless and I wanted to make them stop.
The pain I felt was like nothing I've ever felt before.
Then I began to cry out to God.
I realized at that moment if He had not done this for me.
This love that I feel for Him now would have never come to be.
He laid in the temple yard beaten. His face disfigured from the punches and blows.
The robe he wore was covered in blood as red as a rose.
With every ounce of His strength He pulled himself to His feet.
Only to be knocked down again.
But all that He did was for me , what greater love shown by a friend?
When they lead Him away , His body was weaken by the Pain.
The Roman soldiers had no pity on Him and began to beat Him again.
They slapped Him in the face and knocked Him to the ground.
No idea that this was all for them as well.
That this man would one day rise up and reign over all man and save many from Hell.
As He carried the cross on His back to the place where He would soon die
I sat there in silence, as all did.
The room was filled with the flickering
You could hear people weeping all over the room.
As many in the crowd cried.
We all knew what was next and it made it hard to bare.
All our eyes fixed on the screen.
All you could hear was the sobbing cries of the weeping.
The sounds of those mourning in despair.
The actor laid on the cross as they drove the nails in his hands and in his feet.
But I could see only Jesus there giving His life for me.
The movie became real, the pain was real, the tears ,and the blood.
And then it was like God spoke to me and said" There is no greater love. My son did this for you. He laid his life down so you wouldn't have too.He traded his crown in Heaven for a crown of thorns and a beating you would never indure."
I knew at that moment that this had to be.
Even though it seemed so unfair.
But the greatest thing happened! God caused my eyes to open and see. The crucifixion became clear.
I could truly see what really happened.
No greater love was shown to me.
Than the day Christ was nailed to the tree.
Written and copyrighted by Patricia Montgomery
3-12-04
